Well, well, well... here we go again. I had a great weekend even though it was strange to say the least. Saturday I met Jessica at Ghengi's Grill and we were fortunate enough to have Chayne (AKA Ryan Gossling ) as our waiter. We enjoy going there to see him... MLJMT went with us and he even mentioned that he could tell we liked looking at him... haha Awwwwkwwwward!
Later that afternoon I had a wedding to attend. It was for a good friend of mine that I've known for years. Unfortunately my ex Douchebag has also known her for years. I got there first and was seated on the Bride's side with MLJMT beside another friend that I haven't seen in a long time. When all of a sudden the ex and his lady friend show up at my pew and plop a squat right beside us. During the time preceding the ceremony I happen to notice that they are wearing RINGS.. aha! So, quite be accident I noticed that he and she have gotten married and didn't even tell MLJMT. So again it was up to me to break the news... kinda like the time when I had to tell him... "hey, guess what? Your dad has a new baby... you have a sister" (but don't tell anyone because her husband might get mad)... or the time when I had to say, "hey, you know... your dad is really busy this weekend and can't come get you. BUT it's ok because we are going to have a totally cool time!" (because he planned a trip out of town without you). Sometimes I get really tired of being a ProBono News Anchor for the Douchebag. Thankfully MLJMT thought this news was just fine and actually said, "I like her- she's JUST like you!" (amazing).
Well, then Sunday after church I got a message from Slim Shady. He just wanted to see how my day was going. Actually, that's about 85% of everything he ever says to me. *shrugs* Idk... but this time he actually asked if he could call me and talk for a while. I was going into the grocery store at that exact moment and really couldn't have cared less. I pretty much said that too. He called anyway. We talked. Discussed his children (twins, 12 yrs old, boy, girl). Discussed work. Discussed our weekends. Discussed my child. Discussed child arrangements/plans. Discussed how he allows his children the priviledge of riding dangerous ATV's... YIKES!!! and how he would like to get me on the back of a motorcycle... really? DUuuuuDE! no way!! I very politely explained my stand on motorcycles and 3/4 wheelers... including the death of my son's friend 2 years ago... he retracted his invitation and asked me if I like boats! haha. So maybe I'll go boating sometime with him.
Funny how life works though. It seems that whenever you know what you want, you can never have it. It seems like there are a million distractions that pull at my mind in a million different directions. It seems like it will never be alright.
I am ONE more step closer to having 10 cats and wearing Moomoo's. I truly had higher hopes for my future, yet it seems that those hopes are coming to an end sooner and sooner.
The song below is what plays in my head... 24/7... it embodies all that I am at the moment. I miss him. I love him. and he doesn't even care. So to all the random Q's in the world... here's your song man, here's your song!
I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better
I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’ve fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’ve fallin’ for you
I’ve fallin’ for you
As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me
Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out
That pic reminds me of the quote "youre sorta beautiful."
ReplyDeleteOkay seriously. I don't think that chick is ANYTHING like you. But I'm glad Austin wasn't offended that his dad got married without telling him or inviting him. I can't say I would feel the same way. Unless it was Hank. In which case I would just be like "Who would marry him?" And then I would quickly decide against ever meeting the lady.
DUDE! I totally remember when that lil boy died. Somebody called lori and told her it was Masen? Maybe? I can't remember I just know somebody told lori the name of the boy but not the last name. And the boy had the same last night as one of Zach's BEST friends. When the boy that died Zach actually didn't now too well. But it was still extremely sad, and I remember getting teary eyed even though I had only met the boy once. It was so sad! =[
I want tea now.
yeah. it was Tristan Sixx. Not Masen. Still very sad though.
ReplyDeleteand you can have tea tonight if you come to my house!!! i have the little individual tea pots and actual loose tea leaves and a tea steeping ball... all too cool.
and have you met her? i don't know if she is anything like me or not... but i like her just fine. She's helpful.