Holly Daze....

:-(

So I've determined that I will not win this battle.  No matter how hard I try, I will never fit in with my family. They will just never accept me... and God Bless my mother for pretending to like my cheeseball... and my sister for quite literally taking ALL of my bread pudding and storing it away in her refrigerator... only to throw it away later when I'm not looking (all to spare my feelings) I appreciate it but I hate that it has to be that way.  

I really wish for just ONCE that we could all get together for a holiday and enjoy spending time with each other and no one act like an ASS or anything.  I know this can't be too much to ask for. 

So with the current situation of my life which would be... single parent, no prospective future plans for building on that lack of relationship, no significant reason to think that I will ever grow a larger family or adopt one... or marry into one, and my family doesn't really care if I'm there or not... I think I'll just boycott holidays.  I don't need the stress anymore.  I mean it's not a big deal anyway... I only have the opportunity to be with my child every other holiday anyway and NEXT year is my sucky holiday schedule so it'll be the perfect opportunity to start NOT doing anything.

Christmas 2009 is supposed to be at my house. Which is would normally be really fun to me... but considering.... I'm wavering between ordering pizza and just making everything from a box.. which is what they seem to prefer anyway. 

 

I am Debbie Reynolds! +1 for Grace Kelly!!! I'm pretty much BOTH!

Ever wonder which movie star you are most like?
Well, a team of researchers got together and analyzed the personalities of movie stars.
The gathered info has been incorporated into this quiz.

There are only 10 questions so it doesn't take long.

Number your paper from 1 to 10, then answer each question with the choice that most describes you at this point in your life, and then add up the points that correspond with your answers.


Don' t look ahead or you will ruin the fun!






1. Which describes your perfect date?

A) Candlelight dinner for two
B) Amusement Park
C) Roller blading in the park
D) Rock Concert
E) Have dinner & see a movie
F) Dinner at home with a loved one




2. What is your favorite type of music?
A) Rock and Roll
B) Alternative
C) Soft Rock
D) Classical
E) Christian
F) Jazz



3. What is your favorite type of movie?
A) Comedy
B) Horror
C) Musical
D) Romance
E) Documentary
F ) Mystery



4. Which of the following jobs would you choose if you were given only these choices?
A) Waiter/Waitress
B) Sports Player
C) Teacher
D) Policeman
E) Bartender
F) Business person




5. Which would you rather do if you had an hour to waste?
A) Work out
B) Make out
C) Watch TV
D) Listen to the radio
E) Sleep
F) Read



6. Of the following colors, which do you like best?
A) Yellow
B) White
C) Sky blue
D) Teal
E) Gold
F) Red



7. Which one of the following would you like to eat right now?
A) Ice cream
B) Pizza
C ) Sushi
D) Pasta
E) Salad
F) Lobster Tail




8. Which is your favorite holiday?
A) Halloween
B) Christmas
C) New Year's
D) Valentine's Day
E) Thanksgiving
F) Fourth of July



9 If you could go to any of the following places, which would it be?
A) Reno
B) Spain
C) Las Vegas
D) Hawaii
E) Hollywood
F) British Columbia




10. Of the following, who would you rather spend time with?
A) Someone who is smart
B) Someone with good looks
C) Someone who is a party animal
D) Someone who has fun all the time
E) Someone who is very emotional
F) Someone who is fun to be with




Now total up your points on each question:
1 a-4; b-2; c-5; d-1; e-3; f-6
2. A-2; b-1; c-4; d-5; e-3; f-6
3. A-2; b-1; c-3; d-4;e-5; f-6
4. A-4; b-5; c-3; d-2; e-1; f-6
5. A-5; b-4; c-2; d-1; e-3; f-6
6. A-1; b-5; c-3; d-2; e-4; f-6
7. A-3; b-2; c-1; d-4; e-5; f-6
8. A-1; b-3; c-2; d-4; e-5; f -6
9. A-4; b-5; c-1; d-4; e-3; f-6
10. A-5; b-2; c-1; d-3; e-4; f-6





NOW . Take your total and find out which Movie Star you are:

(10-17 points) You are MADONNA:


You are wild and crazy and you know it. You know how to have fun, but you may take it to extremes. You know what you are doing though, and are much in control of your own life . People don't always see things your way, but that doesn't mean that you should do away with your beliefs. Try to remember that your wild spirit can lead to hurting yourself and others.

(18-26 points) You are DORIS DAY:


You are fun, friendly, and popular! You are a real crowd pleaser. You have probably been out on the town your share of times, yet you come home with the values that your mother taught you. Marriage and children are very important to you, but only after you have fun. Don't let the people you please influence you to stray.

(27-34 points) You are DEBBIE REYNOLDS :


You are cute, and everyone loves you. You are a best friend that no one takes the chance of losing. You never hurt feelings and seldom have your own feelings hurt. Life is a breeze. You are witty, and calm most of the time. Just keep clear of back stabbers, and you are worry-free.

(35-42 points) You are GRACE KELLY:


You are a lover. Romance, flowers, and wine are all you need to enjoy yourself. You are serious about all commitments and are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday, and never forget a Birthday.. Don't let your passion for romance get confused with the real thing.

(43-50 points) You are KATHERINE HEPBURN:


You are smart, a real thinker. Every situation is approached with a plan. You are very healthy in mind and body. You don't take crap from anyone. You have only a couple of individuals that you consider 'real friends'. You teach strong family values. Keep your feet planted in them, but don't overlook a bad situation when it does happen.

(51-60 points) You are ELI ZABETH TAYLOR:


Everyone is in awe of you. You know what you want and how to get it. You have more friends than you know what to do with. Your word is your bond.. Everyone knows when you say something it is money in the bank. You attract the opposite sex. Your intelligence overwhelms most. Your memory is the next thing to photographic. Everyone admires you because you are so considerate and lovable. You know how to enjoy life and treat people right.


*sorry if you don't like the photos selected... it's what i like!* 

olie olie oxen freeeeeeeee

I went to buy more tea today. I most certainly love my tea.  As I was driving back to work I began to ponder things.  One... how much I love the west side of town. I enjoy its shops, entertainment, recreation, the whole area is just "me".   Yes, I am a Westside girl. So I began to make some tenative decisions about my life. It is a known fact that MLJMT will not always be under my roof and at that time (or soon after his graduation) I plan to move to the West side. I would like to buy an older home... a cottage type...

With a cute yard and a beautiful, natural rock exterior.  Something like this home, built in the mid 1940's.  I would enjoy sitting on the porch and drinking my tea and watching birds and squirrels.

I would have a place for my plants to grow... and be able to decorate delicately and enjoy the real hardwood floors and the moldings in the house.

I would also like to have one of these....

In here:

I think it would be nice to spend time out on my patio with my 'cats'... because my 'cats' would love me no matter what... and they would play together in the grass.

Seriously though... who needs a man? I can see myself being quite happy with those two cats and that cozy little house (2223sq ft of cozy).  Oh, man... I can not wait!

I can't deny my future... or this face...

It's the Law!

So a friend of mine sent me a picture (via email) as a peace offering for something she had said. Unfortunately it was of some buff chick and i was apalled. I mean, seriously... I know that I haven't been able to "label" anything in my life as a relationship in pretty close to a year but gosh... I'm still in to DUDE's!! Which is basically what I responded to her. So a few minutes later she sent this pic with the caption... EYE CANDY...  and I laughed.

I laughed for one reason... and one reason alone.  Because this picture took me back.  About 3 or 4 years ago to when me and "G-money" were dating...  I had been emailing a friend of mine and we were discussing her facsination with Jude Law and I mentioned that I had a friend that kinda, sorta, almost looked like him (no names will be revealed) and I then found a picture of JL online, saved it to my computer (in the folder that also had pictures of this un-named friend) and proceeded to send both of them to her in an email... We nodded simultaneously through cyber-space and both agreed that there was a tiny resemblance.  With that, the conversation and the need for that picture of JL was over.  BUT as fate may hold it... I neglected to delete the photo out of my personal pictures and thus the stage was set for an all out WAR with my then boyfriend....

I was at work and for some reason (God remind me) he was at my house alone- no biggie.  Until I recieved the first of many text messages referring to my internet cache and the saved photo...  Because of course to find a photo that matched one I already had of my friend I had to do a search. (which was recorded in my history) The first message was something like, "So, I found it on your computer!".   ok...   I'll take the bait...  "what?".    "The picture of the guy you like THAT'S NOT ME!"...   "oh yeah, who?"......    "Why don't you tell me?".   *puzzled face*...  "I'm not sure, shed some light please?"....  "Don't deny it, YOU like Jude Law!"... (obviously I think we are joking at this point) so I continue...  "ohhhh baby, you know it... he really gets me going!" (worst mistake ever!!!) G-money continues... and to make it worse...   "I know you've been 'sl**ping with (insert friends name here) because he looks like Jude Law, admit it!"......  OHHhhhh... (shocked face),   "nope, that's a big N-O my friend..."

Well, this fight continues until I got home that afternoon where I find that not only is he serious but he is really mad at me... and I'm sorry to be horrible about this, but I found it absolutely hilarious!

To this day (if we were actually talking anymore) he would most likely bring it up in conversation! Sad I know.... and to think I almost married that one...  so much for honesty and love.

Speaking of marriages... I have more pics to add to the burgeoning collection of my fake wedding plans...  it's time for flowers:

I love the curly and whispy look of the first picture, like the stars in the second... the red in the third and ... just the simply elegance of the third... so I guess it will be cream flowers!

This wedding is shaping up quite nicely!  hahaha.

Love Your Soul

My tea told me what my blog title was for today.  I have the coolest tea from the Whole Foods Store and on each tea bag there is a little heart felt message... Today it was: Love Your Soul. I saved the tag!

Well, well, well... here we go again. I had a great weekend even though it was strange to say the least.  Saturday I met Jessica at Ghengi's Grill and we were fortunate enough to have Chayne (AKA Ryan Gossling ) as our waiter.  We enjoy going there to see him... MLJMT went with us and he even mentioned that he could tell we liked looking at him... haha Awwwwkwwwward!

Later that afternoon I had a wedding to attend.  It was for a good friend of mine that I've known for years. Unfortunately my ex Douchebag has also known her for years. I got there first and was seated on the Bride's side with MLJMT beside another friend that I haven't seen in a long time.  When all of a sudden the ex and his lady friend show up at my pew and plop a squat right beside us.  During the time preceding the ceremony I happen to notice that they are wearing RINGS.. aha!  So, quite be accident I noticed that he and she have gotten married and didn't even tell MLJMT.  So again it was up to me to break the news... kinda like the time when I had to tell him... "hey, guess what? Your dad has a new baby... you have a sister" (but don't tell anyone because her husband might get mad)... or the time when I had to say,  "hey, you know... your dad is really busy this weekend and can't come get you. BUT it's ok because we are going to have a totally cool time!" (because he planned a trip out of town without you).  Sometimes I get really tired of being a ProBono News Anchor for the Douchebag.  Thankfully MLJMT thought this news was just fine and actually said,  "I like her- she's JUST like you!" (amazing).

Well,  then Sunday after church I got a message from Slim Shady.  He just wanted to see how my day was going. Actually, that's about 85% of everything he ever says to me. *shrugs* Idk...  but this time he actually asked if he could call me and talk for a while. I was going into the grocery store at that exact moment and really couldn't have cared less.  I pretty much said that too.  He called anyway. We talked. Discussed his children (twins, 12 yrs old, boy, girl). Discussed work. Discussed our weekends. Discussed my child. Discussed child arrangements/plans. Discussed how he allows his children the priviledge of riding dangerous ATV's... YIKES!!! and how he would like to get me on the back of a motorcycle... really? DUuuuuDE! no way!! I very politely explained my stand on motorcycles and 3/4 wheelers... including the death of my son's friend 2 years ago... he retracted his invitation and asked me if I like boats!   haha. So maybe I'll go boating sometime with him. 

 Funny how life works though.  It seems that whenever you know what you want, you can never have it.  It seems like there are a million distractions that pull at my mind in a million different directions.  It seems like it will never be alright.

I am ONE more step closer to having 10 cats and wearing Moomoo's. I truly had higher hopes for my future, yet it seems that those hopes are coming to an end sooner and sooner. 

The song below is what plays in my head... 24/7... it embodies all that I am at the moment. I miss him. I love him. and he doesn't even care.  So to all the random Q's in the world... here's your song man, here's your song!

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better
I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’ve fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’ve fallin’ for you
I’ve fallin’ for you
As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me


Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out